horrible

Its been a horrible day all right man. i guess for the next few days i am going to be in such a bad mood i dun tink you will want to even look at me. Yeo, try not to, including Ze and Jo, thanks, dun wanna to turn our friendship sour.

Firstly, i flunked another test. History. Just by one bloody mark lah, i know the bad word. hee. In a bad mood. and i can't think what would happen when i get home, can't be bothered to. They, as in my parents will ban me from using the computer from using the computer, which i will need for history. Shucks. But luckily they allowed m this time. ahhh.. Horrible.

Secondly, i want to make clear that i definitely am not going crazy over the title of "recruit officer". I just... Its just a "dream" that will never come true, its just to make life more colourful. Aiming to be better than someone is obviously fake, as in i will NEVER get that far too, much as i want to. All of these are definitely NOT getting to my head. I don't know abt my seniors, but i lurve the trumpet, and them too, and though i... Ahh nevermind, dun really noe how to describe it too. I am not trying to disobey them at all, its just my character and i really can't help it, thoug now i will keep my thought to myself more, and i hope i can do it. I am really trying to striver harder in band(etc. playing quiter when needed to tune), hope its obvious enough. I dun really care what others my think, but if ure reading this, please remember that i am not as ambitious as who you think i amy be. I dun mind being "postless", really, as its not affecting at all. =) But, a letter really made me reflect. Maybe i really appear a bit "over the act". ha. will not try to be that "open" anymore, guess life willl have to become even more boring then. LOL.

My life is in such a mess. Really, i didn't want it that way. Perhaps i shud start keeping everything to myself, right? Then, i will not seem as cheerful as i may seem to be everyday, because i am definitely NOT HAPPY WITH MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. seriously, it really sucks. Much as i need my friends' help, i also need to calm down and sort things out really soon. guess i'd rather be lefy alone. Oh, and if you do not like me, please dun beat around the bush, tell me and i will try to change, really. Not kidding here.

Bad.Life.Bad.Mood.Ahh.