stressed

hey world. i'm feeling stressed.

i don't want to be forced to take music, and seriously i don't believe in being forced to do something i like and thus losing the interest for it. i wanna cry. i don't want to end up hating music because of this effing lame requirement of the ministry. i didn't think doing music in ACJC would require me to do a H3 and it seriously is stressing the shit out of me. i don't think i can cope because i'm so freaking lazy and not very smart. just kill me, i really don't want to hate music.

band. longlonghours. only me, lousy me in trumpet section so far. wrong embouchure, lousy tone, horrible breathing methods. yeah i totally suck now. rawr. can't even play running quavers properly. die. and i'm damn loner in band. sheesh.

new class. totally nobody i know at all! like wth. and all of us have different combi! how in the world do we bond like that. BUT I STRONGLY BELIEVE WE CAN BOND. i hope we do, if not life in ACJC will just kill me. really.

i doubt i'll ever get married. sheesh ):

BUT orientation wasn't so bad afterall. it's like, at the end alr then i start missing the orientation times ): even though i didn't participate actively, but my OG mates were relatively funny people so i had a fun time. PYRO i'm gonna miss you. how i wish we were a class. emo max now, me. ): i hope i can make new friends ):

I MISS MY SC GANG D: i didn't know splitting up was so tough! damn it, we seriously need to go out soon, if not i will breakdown. i nearly cried during band today. damn random. i was just sitting there taking attendance, then trying to practice fingerings and when my retarded fingers couldn't do it, i wanted to cry. ar, the stress. why am i so lousy.

i can't be bothered to colour the post. well, i hope the next time i post life will be slightly better, if not much more. I MUST GET MARRIED AR.