scary ):

okay i am super slack today.

was supposed to do lit today, but i decided that i shall do lit homework all together when i get over today. today is abit... off form la. i could have gone for band, but i don't want to get bashed up by the scfluatists so uhm, this saturday then go and pass them their stuff :D haha but that aside, i'm quite emotionally screwed up today :\ had dreams with the same person appearing twice in a row. its pretty scary. and the dream's not right :\ like really really weird. and really off ): i'm kinda scared by it haha. so today whole day abit lazy to start doing things. stupid dream, stupid person -.- ar, how, my nerves aren't settling, i'm still frigging disturbed.

hopefully tomorrow i'll be better i wouldn't want to take up too much time wondering why on earth i'm panicking so much. CIP hopefully will go fine without my mentors, shirley & josie. and now i even have to help deb what if things go wrong! D: oh no. shitto, but i believe in myself, i can SO do this!

oh man. and i've been visiting SNYO and Philyouth webbies these days pretty much. i'm super interested to join; but i admit, i've got no guts to go for auditions. with my wrong embouchure (look dcjj i corrected spelling!) they wouldn't like it i guess :\ its just wrong la. so yeah i don't really dare. hopefully by jc / poly year i can fix it. i really want to improve my playing by exposing myselfffff gosh someone give me the guts to.

today didn't work. haha was supposed to, but couldn't make up my mind if i should go, so last minute not enough time, then don't go lor haha. poor aunty and yijun, sorry la! anyway i had photocopying to settle too.

sian.