whoo..

okay recently has been quite horrendous.

monday morning was great. the movie was great and had quite abit of fun. then came back and the trouble started. i can't even remember when the last time i cried was before this monday. cried so much that eyes hurt -.- also dunno why la, totally sucked and everything went wrong. tuesday kinda improved but it didn't help that i had very little sleep the previous night :\ yeah but at least didn't kenna scolding about the scores. hopefully tomorrow won't die either. i'm going to be hardworking and do well and practice hard! shall start tomorrow and make sure i make good tones, even with a wrong embrochure! (: okay that is bad enough, the wrong embrochure. the process is not there ): okay heck. i thought i got over it alr -.-

right. i hope SYF next year will be okay :\ i have a feeling that i would prefer syf07 more, which is not what i want cause after all next year is my last and final year. i want to leave a good memory, and i don't think it will happen if i don't enjoy the process, which includes the piece we choose. i really do not like Beautiful Oregon. in fact i even like golden jubilee more now :\ and SYF aside, i feel as if i've been super extra in band. like i don't go also can that kind :\ yeah maybe even if i don't go its okay. i wonder if it is?

and was talking to lisa about canada today ): she's so lucky la canada sounds great! ): but i'll miss her, my partner07! oh man i wish i could go back to last year. 2SE07 was nice. everything is moving too quickly, i feel as though i might regret everything in SC sec ): like scband, how i regret not practicing hard enough to sound better, or in sec1 where i practically slacked so now i'm horrible in my studies too.

what's worse, i feel tired, already. school no longer holds the excitement it used to D: hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. at least, let me sound good ):