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what a sad world ):

for the past two weeks, i've been quite happy, but right now, i'm demoralized, once again. and its even harder now. like i've said, i'm down for first for Northwoods, and at first i thought with a littel practice i should be okay, but now i know its totally not the case. omg i can't even tongue high G properly, and i don't even wanna think about those high As in my score. plus that stupid highhigh C that idiot's making me play when he obviously can la wth ): but i know if i can really master this song, then in future i should be able to play songs without much problems. cause right now, chorale and irish is okay, so i have my time for northwoods. but i'm reallly very afffected by my performance today. i should just slap myself. and everything has to be so busy and clumped together now; amath and freaking chem block tomorrow and thursday. i feel like swearing on a mic that will let the whole damned world hear me ):

from now till the YPSB concert i'm going to work much harder and improve my playing standard and i really reallly hope that i am able to hit a nice high A by the concert. hopefully, a highhigh C, too. but, oh well. right now i have to be able to hit high F first. E is still okay, but F... i shall really try. this friday, maybe.

shit. plus what the &%*@#! was the whole freaking LC about man damn ); i'm just going to flunk everything and retain this year. and my english, too. that's what i'm worrying about now. and chem block, i've barely finished my salt prep thingy, and theres the previous chapters i haven't touched on yet. and my chem is not say very good. omg this world is @#^$ -ing screwed.

i really hope i don't screw up Amath tomorrow, seriously. One and a half hour paper, and only two chapters :\ i think the questions are going to be tricky, and what am I doing now? blogging, freak. i seriously got a problem. quote yiann, "slap me, somebody". bash me, somebody. bash me HARD. in the head.

but okay fine. to end on a happy note, the earlier part of the day wasn't too bad. after school i went to the computer lab, met karyn and zhao there, then played wahjong. so mean la they all named the room "puisucks" hrmphf >:( haha and before LC they were playing from Symphony 92.4 which really has quite nice overtures playing eh. and there was one from Disney, too. nice FM (:

okayokay i shall go watch tv till 8 then do amath, and maybe some chemistry too. tata ~