sad.

i am sad.

and why? i dunno. i think its post-syf-syndrome. really. today i was staring into space, thinking abouot all the practices we had. and suddenly my heart ached so much. i dunno why. i think its because whenever the next syf is, i am will be a sec4, and a senior, and a person who will be leaving scband soon. i hate it. i don't want to leave scband. really. after only being here for 1 year plus i can already feel the band love. i almost cried when i thought about all this, while listening to the madrigalum we played during our soundcheck. its so painful. i really treasure my time in band, especially during band camp, when we sleep together. that noise, gradually decrescending deserves a gold. thats scband's dynamic range. we can be so loud, yet so soft. hearing everybody breathe at night during lights out is the best thing of the camp. mealtimes can be pretty fun too. oh man i want another band camp! can we have it just for fun? perhaps everyday we play new songs, amuse each other with our so-called perfect sight-reading skills, tickle each other with our super leng jokes, shout at the people in the bathroom taking such a long time to bath, set out sleeping bags in our room for the night, see mr yap bounce, play when we are not supposed to during sectionals, oh that would be wonderful. scband camp is the best, i think. staring at jessica sleep (well it ends pretty fast, she sleeps in a split second) is fun, hearing conny groan at night is stupid, hear lingli shriek occasionally is cool, hearing michelle's "night teeth exercise" is scary, but oh, all these are priceless in my eyes. band is the best thing that ever happened in my life, seriously. i never knew i would play a trumpet, never knew i would get such good fellow mates, never knew i would have such cute seniors, never knew i would fall so deeply into a cca. band is not only playing with our instruments, but also an important lesson all we bandits learn, how to cooperate and play in time, just like how we have work together in life. we help each other along the way, have mutual trust, an important thing we should have for everybody around us. yes, i would say band is my life, once again.

so after this super cheem paragraph which cheers me up, the summary point is:

i love scband(: